The World Is Small

So things went VERY well this morning. I don't want to get into too much detail lest I jinx myself. But I have to say that I am glad I always try to comport myself in a professional manner whenever I am out and about. You never know who you will meet or in what capacity. This is ESPECIALLY true in Washington DC - this town is very small and everyone knows everyone. Thank goodness I don't have many skeletons in my closet b/c you never know...

In other news I got a personal email from the National News Director at GLAAD. I had emailed them a comment and request to contact the Washington Post about the story. Was nice to get a personal response back - she and I are going to chat actually. Maybe I will volunteer for them. I don't know why that article struck a nerve like it did. I was never an ex-gay nor plan to be one. Maybe it is b/c I remember feeling so bad when I was in the closet. I grew up Catholic, like church every Sunday Catholic and it is NOT good to be gay and Catholic. I knew I couldn't change myself but there were times when I really wanted to. Thankfully I came to my senses and started the coming out process by putting myself out in the gay community. But I had panic attacks every day for more than a year (sometimes multiple times a day) because I was so fearful of dying and not being "right" in God's eyes. It was a very scary and terrifying period in my life. It still gives me chills just thinking about how anxious I was. My panic attacks could strike at anytime and anywhere - but were all inside my head. You would never know if I was having one unless you really paid very close attention. I covered them very well though while it was happening I was always on the verge of losing my cool and running out of the place I was in. The "flee or fight" urge was so hard to control - it made me the most miserable I have ever been. I am so glad I am "out", happy and secure that I in fact am "right" with God. My friend Cosmicblast once told me a long while back "TOS, God doesn't make junk nor does he make mistakes - you are b/c you were made that way."

Yup he's right and I think that is why I got so vocal and active yesterday. If I can help prevent 1 person from feeling like I did back in the day - then it's worth it.
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Wow. I just had the nicest chat with the woman from GlAAD. I am really blown away that she took the time to get some of my thoughts and views. There are a lot of big faceless "causes" out there but GLAAD is not one of them. How encouraging! I have a lot of respect for people who work (and most likely for a lesser wage - you know non-profits) and put in the extra personal effort for a cause they feel passionate about.